My Personal Boudoir Session. Part III

Changing into the next outfit was a little mortifying for me. I mean even though I was fully nude under the lace dress, this one I really wanted to look great. I knew it would be something that my husband would like on me...but I was nervous that I wouldn't be able to pull off the look...

Thankfully Suzie had some spare shoes lying around that fit my outfit a little better. It was nice that she had visions for the look of my outfits, and helped me to make my look come through in the images.  We flew that outfit pretty quick because my feet were a little too small for those shoes. 

I was pretty excited for my blazer outfit, but as I was rummaging through my bag, I realized I forgot my black thong. Suzie to the rescue again. She keeps a stock of them on had, just for this kind of occasion. Oh thanks goodness! 

By the time it came around for me to do my final vision. I was done being nervous. They had all seen my tiny boobs, my thicker thighs, I'd gotten compliments on my ass, and no one seemed to say anything about my stretch marks all over, so I was living happy. I didn't even feel the need to go into the bathroom to change, I just dropped it all right there. See I wanted to do a nude fine art piece where I was covered in old film. You know the kind that you had to develop in a dark room, back in the day when being a photographer was honored and not everyone thought they could be a paid professional. I wanted to honor the skill, and my body. I stripped, in front of the big windows, my coworker/best friend/ first cousin, and two unfamiliar women. I felt comfortable with who I was by that point so why shouldn't I? And after laying on the really cold floor in a somewhat awkward position while two of the ladies taped the film to my body..that right they were TOUCHING me while I was naked and it didn't even phase me. I had the final image in my mind and I am so happy that I did.

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My Personal Boudoir Session. Part II

We laughed as we rolled into Minot. It had been forever since I'd been there, and the last time I was there it wasn't necessarily a good experience. Maybe the laughter was a nervous laugh. We pulled up to the building and I let it all go, even the 'nervous fumes'. I heaved and wiped my sweaty palms on my sweat pants and walked up to the beautiful brick building in front of me.

Suzie (the photographer) and Ju'tone (the HAMU artist) were over grabbing lunch because we were late, which made me nervous that they already hated me. They greeted us at the door and we crossed the threshold of boudoir. They offered me some goodies from the bakery next door which was great because I totally spaced eating anything for the past twelve hours and my stomach was pissed!

They then sat in me in the chair to get started on hair and makeup and we started talking. About everything. From my business to her business, to why I was doing this, to the meaning of yellow roses (more on that story another time). I felt like I was talking with my girlfriends in my living room. After being all dolled up, it didn't feel so bad to get into the first outfit. Even though my first outfit was something I wear often, I was awkward in it. I didn't know how to move, I didn't know how to look at her with "sexy" eyes or if I should smile. I didn't know what to do! Thankfully Suzie is a professional and she knew just what to say to get me to relax, and make the expressions that she needed in order to 'make' the image. After outfit number one, I went down to a little something more revealing and by the end of the session I was completely comfortable and by the end of it I was LITERALLY walking around butt ass naked. You heard me right, completely nude.

Back track a week and a few days to one of my late night panic attacks where I found that I was second guessing my outfits. And I went to my stress release, online shopping. I purchased a piece from Victoria Secret that I thought would look good and help show off some of my curves, and in the midst of it I had this crazy idea. I wanted an image of me that displayed my passion. My passion for women, my passion for self love, my passion for photography. I threw the idea to Suzie and she was game. YEAH! Now to only get it to work the way I envision it.

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My personal boudoir session. Part I

I gave up weddings for women a year ago and I have to say I will never go back. Don't get me wrong, I still love weddings. I love the meaning of them, the ceremony, the ruckus of it all. But there is something extraordinary about giving women their confidence, sex appeal, and self worth back.

I wanted all of my clients and potential clients to know that they're not alone in this. I wanted them to see that I too know how it feels to go from stay at home mom to a super model for a day. So I went and had my OWN boudoir session done.

I wanted it to be a gift to myself, with maybe a little something extra for my husband thrown in there too :) So I set up my appointment with Suzie this past July. And I have to say that I forgot about for a little while. I put it on the back burner and got other things taken care of. However, every few days the thought would cross my mind and I would start plowing the Internet for lingerie that would look best on me. I went in EVERY direction possible. Then I had to take a step back and really think about what I wanted out of my session. Did I want it to be sultry? Did I want it to be more like role play and act out a pinup scene? Did I want it to be casual and laid back? No I wanted it to be some what sophisticated, classy, with a little naughty twist to it...like me.

That's when I decided on three outfits...and trust me it didn't take long for me to find what I wanted to wear once I had my mind sent on what I wanted the overall outcome to be. The first one is an outfit that MEANS something to me. It has history. Does it look the best on me? Not really, but when I see myself in it, I know there's something more to it than just a nightie. The second outfit, I found at a local clothing boutique Lillian's. It was supposed to be a regular dress, but it was made out of this beautiful coral blue lace. And when I saw it, I saw myself in it IMMEDIATELY.  The last outfit was simple. My best feature is by far my ass. So I wanted to focus on that, maybe add a little something extra. So I chose a black thong, and my black suit blazer. And I was set.

Then I started to get nervous. What shoes do I wear? What accessories do I bring? I kept thinking to myself "I have to make this look awesome because I am a boudoir photographer so my pictures have to be over the top amaze-balls." I stressed for weeks. I had been working out for months with nothing to show for it and I was no where near my goal weight. I would stay up at night, picturing horrible things happening at the session, the girls laughing at me...me having a weird smell...forgetting to shave...being extremely late. Anything and everything.

It was in one of those fits of nerves in the middle of the night, that it dawned on me. I'm taking these picture to showcase to myself who I am. Not who I want to be, or who my husband wants me to be, but who I am. Hopefully, a very sexy, classy, uber beautiful me, but all in all...ME. I need not worry about the 10 extra pounds. The little chub on the belly that just won't go away. That's who I am today. That's who my kids love, who my husband wants to come home to every night and who God loves. So why should I fret over changing it?

The night before we left for Minot, I drank all the water I could and then finished off the evening with a glass of wine. And I couldn't sleep. I had to pee all night long and then I was so excited I reminded myself of the kids in the Disney commercial "I'M TOO EXCITED TO SLEEP!" When the morning came to leave for Minot. I was super happy that I chose to bring a great friend (and an amazing co-worker) with me to my session. We talked the entire way there about what I should expect, what I was worried about...what she was worried about..HAHA! And then we just had a great girl chat. It was awesome to have that before I disrobed! We talked and laughed so hard that it seemed like no time at all had passed and we were in Minot.

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Me after my session. It's amazing how sexy you feel with a ton of makeup on and false eyelashes!